Deeply Humbled.

      I sit right now at my desk. Im lit up by two monitors, one with my art, and one with CGHUB's finest and greatest. i always get inspired by this public and social network for artists. But mostly i get deeply humbled. It is a great feeling, always knowing someone is better than you. ALWAYS. i look at my work and know that i am just beginning. Just starting out. I havent even figured out what my art style is. Or how i get that art style. Im just this little seed thats soaking up all the water it can get. Im sponging every bit of art knowledge and every crumb of education i can get to become a better artist. And for that i love being humbled.

      Its because of this competition in this industry that i will always try to better myself and strive for more. This has always been a constant climb i have always endured upon myself but i think its a good thing for this matter. I only hope that what i am attempting here will get me into my dream school, Art Center.

     Its one thing to be good. Its another to be good at Art Center. I always see grads from Art Center that are in the field now and see the BOLDNESS that seeps out of everyone of their pieces. Their creativity is off the charts and it shows. I really want to be at that professional level. I want to be looked at one day and thought of like the way i see these artists. In otherwords i want to be a role model. I dont care if i make money. Money has never been a priority with me, i only care about the art. Is it cool? Is it creative? Does it generate ideas? Does it stir someones mind and inspire others? These things i care about the most. And most of all, i think that if i am happy with something, then i am complete inside; something that is lacking with myself as of late.

     I think.... no... i KNOW, that when i get to California, and go inside the campus of Art Center i will have this emptiness filled. I know that when i get there i will have a sense of purpose in life. Because i will be standing with others who feel as passionately as i do about art. About movies and video games. And those others also want to do better each and everyday just like me. 

When i get there it is going to be amazing. The excitement is stirring in me now. Excitement that will only push me to work on my art until the sun comes up. Practice will get me to my destination.

Thank you to whoever is actually reading my blogs and such. more postings of my art will be up soon.

with all sincerity
-Nick